* living at a fast pace
* honey mustard
* how i am going to organize my work tomorrow
* the name for my future blog
* a blog collaboration with my sister
* my brother
* my mom
* kindergarten
* sleeping
* fall television programming
i had to see the list to know what is wrong with me. usually, i blame these mood swings on being a cancer or on a bad hair day. and what i have realized in recent years (but forget the month after the realization) is that when i get restless, unorganized, chaotic in thought, distressed about the way things smell, etc...it happens at the change of seasons.
as an adult, it is your responsibilty to anchor yourself. be consistent about one thing or another. i am infamous for saying "ohhhh....i love the way opening a blank notebook made me feel this morning and writing while i drank tea and ate toast. from now on, i am going to eat toast, drink tea, and write every morning." then i stop doing it. but - i have learned that consistency for me is not doing said things every morning. consistency for me means having tea in my house whenever i want it or when guests are here....writing daily - regardless of topic or overall quality....and eating toast. i love toast.
so, if you are feeling restless and frustrated. if you are thinking that you blew it or that you lost your rhythm, pick something to be a pivot point. defining or redefining your identity is easy.it can be done. i used to be a total sh*thead. i once thought i would never again have a good friend or be trusted by anybody. i have moments of pure regret and don't feel i have merited any blessing or fortune. my life has changed - i have changed my life and i have let powers beyond me change my life. there are still friends from my past who don't believe it, or who are apprehensive - fair enough. but my heart is no longer at their mercy or subject to their approval.
that being said, i look at strangers as the easiest place to regain your personal strength. offer patience, sincerity, and rapport with every single person - talking to a kid who is staring at you and letting them know there are nice people in the world. these things, i firmly believe it, help you to trust yourself. know yourself. build relationships and connections and credibility. you just have to start somewhere and the minute you do, take me 6 - 7 years ago as an example, the minute you get serious about being a meaningful person to those around you, to realizing that a completely boring life is as much of a blessing as an edgy hipster tale, and to maximizing yourself in any given role - you are going to be happier. you'll probably sleep better too.
yes. i am talking to you.
* honey mustard
* how i am going to organize my work tomorrow
* the name for my future blog
* a blog collaboration with my sister
* my brother
* my mom
* kindergarten
* sleeping
* fall television programming
i had to see the list to know what is wrong with me. usually, i blame these mood swings on being a cancer or on a bad hair day. and what i have realized in recent years (but forget the month after the realization) is that when i get restless, unorganized, chaotic in thought, distressed about the way things smell, etc...it happens at the change of seasons.
as an adult, it is your responsibilty to anchor yourself. be consistent about one thing or another. i am infamous for saying "ohhhh....i love the way opening a blank notebook made me feel this morning and writing while i drank tea and ate toast. from now on, i am going to eat toast, drink tea, and write every morning." then i stop doing it. but - i have learned that consistency for me is not doing said things every morning. consistency for me means having tea in my house whenever i want it or when guests are here....writing daily - regardless of topic or overall quality....and eating toast. i love toast.
so, if you are feeling restless and frustrated. if you are thinking that you blew it or that you lost your rhythm, pick something to be a pivot point. defining or redefining your identity is easy.it can be done. i used to be a total sh*thead. i once thought i would never again have a good friend or be trusted by anybody. i have moments of pure regret and don't feel i have merited any blessing or fortune. my life has changed - i have changed my life and i have let powers beyond me change my life. there are still friends from my past who don't believe it, or who are apprehensive - fair enough. but my heart is no longer at their mercy or subject to their approval.
what others think does not and should not be what drives you through each day.
take care of yourself. take care of others and that is all that matters.
that being said, i look at strangers as the easiest place to regain your personal strength. offer patience, sincerity, and rapport with every single person - talking to a kid who is staring at you and letting them know there are nice people in the world. these things, i firmly believe it, help you to trust yourself. know yourself. build relationships and connections and credibility. you just have to start somewhere and the minute you do, take me 6 - 7 years ago as an example, the minute you get serious about being a meaningful person to those around you, to realizing that a completely boring life is as much of a blessing as an edgy hipster tale, and to maximizing yourself in any given role - you are going to be happier. you'll probably sleep better too.
yes. i am talking to you.
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